| the future |
[May. 5th, 2009|03:58 am] |
it's gonna come from left field and nobody will be expecting it. it is going to seem random and i'm not quite sure people will believe it's not but it isn't. it was very calculated and thought about. It's still in motion so that gives you some idea of how long it's taking. all i can say is that what has been done thus far has been done out of necessity, it wasn't how i wanted. or anyone else. but sometimes life doesn't really care what you want and you have to do things just to get by.... which is where we are now.
people will say rude things. but when do they not? it's not happening for them though. this is right and this is what we have been working towards for a year. it took us that long. and we're still not ready. but we will be. we really will be. everything has been a stepping stone to this. |
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| A Happy Home lyrics |
[Nov. 30th, 2008|03:01 am] |
Here you go, Lisa. Love you!
A HAPPY HOME
You never know what you'll find until it's said and done,
until your story's told. It's not a mystery and we all know
some will leave us cold.
You never wanted it to be this way but some things we
can't choose, so you take what life's handed you and
sometimes you'll lose.
Give it up, we're breaking down and you know we're
all miserable.
Just have the guts to spell it out now.
Find the words to say...FInd the guts to finally say
that this doesn't work because it's not working.
Know that it's okay. Know that we will be okay,
that maybe the happiest homes are divided ones.
I don't want to pick a side so don't you ask me.
Don't you ask me where he goes, or where she's been
because I don't want to know. No, no.
I know, I know, it's difficult to let this go
but I need you to try because it's not my fight.
We just need to start over.
I know, I know, it's difficult to let this go
but I need you to try because it's not my fight.
We just need to start over.
Find the words to say...FInd the guts to finally say
that this doesn't work because it's not working.
Know that it's okay. Know that we will be okay,
that maybe the happiest homes are divided ones.
Just find the words to say, find the guts to finally say
that this doesn't work.
It's not working.
Find the words to say...FInd the guts to finally say
that this doesn't work because it's not working.
Know that it's okay. Know that we will be okay,
that maybe the happiest homes are divided ones.
I know, I know, it's difficult to let this go
but I need you to try because it's not my fight.
We just need to start over.
hope you guys like them!
<3 |
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| The Holidays and a new song |
[Nov. 29th, 2008|10:10 pm] |
I know my last entry was a rough one, and now that I'm out of the house, a lot of the problems are going away. It's definitely an inconvenience to jump from house to house and not really have a room of my own but at least it will force me to get my shit together.
Thanksgiving turned out to be a lot of fun but it was sad too.
First of all, I ONLY ate turkey. Every year I eat the same thing...turkey, mashed potatoes and biscuits.....THIS YEAR....someone messed with the potatoes and made them all runny. They looked like grits! I couldn't even bring myself to try them. So I stuck with the turkey....which was amazing so I can't complain.
At first it was awkward. This was my first holiday with my parents being separated and it felt so wrong to not have my mom there. I like my dad's girlfriend but she's not my mom...so I decided to get drunk. And after that I was fine. :)
When we were done with dinner we went to my mom's house to spend some time with her and by spending time I mean she played circle of death with us and then I passed out. So all in all it was a good day.
But it's still weird. My parents are not together. When I wake up christmas morning, everyone won't be there. I'm going to have to split up my day between both sides. And I'm not complaining. I know this isn't the worst thing to happen....it's just taking longer than I thought to get used to it.
On that note, we posted a new song called A Happy Home on our myspace.
(www.myspace.com/lovelikethis)
In the beginning it was hard to sing this song but now I feel so much better about it because a lot of my friends have said they could relate to it. On the one hand that makes me a little sad that we all have to deal with that, but it's nice to know that someone else gets what you're going through.
Strength in numbers.
So if you read this, go check the song and then maybe come see us play it in person at the masquerade this coming thursday with vedera. :) |
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| Starting over. |
[Sep. 23rd, 2008|04:02 pm] |
It's been quite awhile since I've written, and now there's so much to write, so...why the hell not?
Basically the ryans and I started a new band...we wanted to leave all the Kenotia mess behind us and start fresh and now the lineup we have is fuckin sick.
I don't think we've had this much fun since we first started Kenotia. Nobody fights, we all just genuinely like hanging out together, which is awesome. Paul and Tim were the best choices we could ever make. We've written some great stuff too. I think we kept the best parts of Kenotia and then made it more accessible to everyone. We needed some upbeat stuff. I'm just interested to hear what the rest of the stuff sounds like. But so far for only practicing for two weeks and we already wrote 4 songs, recorded 3 and gotten great managers....I'd say that's pretty damn good. And somehow, I don't know how but I'm not complaining, we are managing to get around 3,000 plays a day.....more than we ever got in Kenotia. So needless to say, we're stoked.
This past weekend was interesting to say the least, so I feel the need to recap for you...here are some bullet points...
-we got pulled over 3 times in 24 hours...once by a bike cop
-ryan spent over $25 at taco bell and ended up wasting half of it
-"slow motion" and "pound hard"...there should be pictures soon
-i slept between 2 half naked guys
-Jan Terri
There will be more stories, I'm sure of it.
Which brings me to something else. We've known the other bands around Atlanta for a long time now..most of them I would like to say we're friends with.....
I would LIKE to say that, but unfortunately I thought wrong. I am so incredibly sick and tired of bands with attitudes. Especially ones that have no reason to be cocky. Where the hell do you think that is going to get you? I understand that when one band does well, you get jealous...because we've all done it. But where you go from there is what makes you a complete asshat. And to be honest, I would have more respect for you if you were just upfront about not liking us...that I could handle. But when we show up to shows and you're all buddy buddy, hug hug and then you talk shit about us as soon as we're gone, it isn't just childish but it's fuckin cowardly.
I'm not going to even bring it up to them because I already know how this is going to play out and I'm fine with it.
We're going to go back out on tour, we're going to keep working our asses off and get exactly what it is that we set out to get, and they're going to keep playing local shows, talkin shit and expecting some big time guy to come and sign them instantly.
Good luck with it.
No more shows with them. No more pretending we're friends.
And yes, there will be a song about this on the album.
So look out for it.
:) |
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| explanations |
[Aug. 14th, 2008|03:12 pm] |
kenotia's future
punkradiocast.com
tonight at 9 pm est
the first twenty minutes say it all |
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| YEAH YEAH YEAH! |
[Aug. 4th, 2008|08:17 pm] |
So I went to the doctors this morning and if you couldn't tell by my previous entries, I was extremely scared/worried out of my mind.
I woke up, drove down to Atlanta...and first of all, there is NO free parking downtown...and you would think there would be free parking at the hospital...you know since you're paying out the ass to be there anyways...but no. It costs money and I wasn't prepared but thank god Alex had a credit card.
I get the scope stuck down my throat so they can see everything...(and by the way it's very weird to see your vocal cords on huge computer screen) and I couldn't believe it but I don't have nodules!
I'm fine! Well my vocal cords are fine, he said there was no tissue damage and that the problem was just muscle tension in my throat. So I have an appointment with a vocal therapist and I will be great.
I've started writing already and I've decided to write a few songs, record them and THEN find a band. I've already got a possible drummer and the guy I'm writing with is an awesome guitar player, so I should have some new music very soon.
I'm excited and this time around I will def. be taking care of my throat a lot better than before. This time I know exactly what to do and I know more people.....I just want to play shows, so it's time to get down. |
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| NEWNEWNEW |
[Jul. 19th, 2008|01:33 pm] |
So I've already started the writing/recording process for my new stuff...and by recording I mean everything I can possibly do without singing. Still not allowed to do that yet but the pain went away again, so that has to be good.
John is teaching me Reason, so every chance I get I'm over there laying down tracks. My plan is to get it all recorded on my own and THEN look for a band..it seems easier that way to me. But it's definitely different than Kenotia, which is good and sad. But I'm excited.
I haven't been on the band page...it's too hard. I don't want to know when they get a new singer. We parted ways on a really good note but still....I don't want to see who they get to replace me...that's too much.
I miss them, I think I always will....that was 3 years of my life..that was who I was and who I still feel I should be but I know it's time for something new...a fresh start.
I just can't wait to get back out and play shows...I'm working on it. |
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| wtf?! |
[Jul. 13th, 2008|06:37 am] |
I've mentioned before that I was afraid that I wouldn't be able to sing if I had nodules...which I think I do, but won't know for sure until August 4th. But tonight, after laying in bed trying to figure out what I do now, I had to come look this stuff up on the internet because I was worrying so much. And I'm glad I looked it up because I had no idea what I was talking about.
yes, nodules come from singing wrong but contrary to what people think, if you have to have surgery (which only happens in extreme cases) only a small percentage of people can't sing again. In fact, I took it one step further and looked up "singing after nodule removal" and it gave me a list of a bunch of singers who had nodules, and most of them had surgery...check it out, you would be surprised....
* Amanda Palmer of The Dresden Dolls said in January 2008 that she will undergo surgery for nodes in March 2008. She has also been forced to cancel a mini-tour because of the surgery.
* Davey Havok, lead singer of AFI, suffered from vocal nodes, which forced AFI to cancel several shows on their Spring '04 tour as well as changed the style of his singing from a raspier style to a more clearer style.
* Roughton Reynolds from Enter Shikari developed nodules and as a result missed several shows on their UK tour.
* Luciano Pavarotti developed vocal fold nodules early in his at-the-time mediocre career, leading him to renounce a life of music. Ironically, the psychological release associated with this decision and soon-after disappearance of the nodules lead to an incredible improvement in his sound quality.
* One famous sufferer was Queen pianist and lead singer Freddie Mercury.
* Natalie Imbruglia developed nodules during the 90's and had them removed a few years later, this noticeably improved the timbre in her voice.
* A young Lucinda Williams developed and had removed nodules.
* Julie Andrews also suffered from vocal cord nodules, and famously lost her singing voice after surgery to remove them.
* Robert Plant, singer of band Led Zeppelin received treatment for nodules in 1973 and possibly 1974. This resulted in a drop in range of voice and a harsh timbre on the 1975 album Physical Graffiti.
* Bonnie Tyler, in 1977, found out that she had nodules that were so severe that she had to have surgery for their removal. After the surgery was performed, she was ordered to not speak for six weeks. One day while healing, she accidentally screamed and her voice took on a raspy quality.
* Whitney Houston developed nodules during her famous Bodyguard tour in 1993-1994. At the time, she was unable to rest her voice to prevent permanent damage. She has been able to continue a successful singing career since then, but her voice has developed a noticeable, darker and hoarser tone than before.
* Sarah Brightman after her Harem world tour in 2004, she had surgery to remove vocal nodules.
* Bette Midler had developed nodules in 2006-2007.
* Justin Timberlake had surgery to remove vocal nodules in 2005.
* Omarion, formerly of boy-band B2K also had surgery to remove nodules in 2005, and as a result, had to cancel a number of live shows in London
* Goo Goo Dolls' lead singer Johnny Rzeznik, Everclear lead singer Art Alexakis, and Tony Rice, bluegrass guitarist and singer, all have suffered from the condition.
* Steve Augeri of the band Journey was forced to leave the band when his nodules got so severe in the 2006 tour, that a replacement was drafted in to continue the tour.
* In October 2006 Jet guitarist and singer Nic Cester was diagnosed with the disease.
* Bert McCracken, vocalist of The Used, developed a nodule in his vocal cord, and underwent surgery during the summer of 2007. The nodule was successfully removed.
* Sonny Moore, vocalist of From First to Last, also had a nodule in his vocal cord. After surgery for its removal, he tore a vocal cord.
* Joss Stone also had nodules and was told by doctors that she had to rest her voice otherwise permanent damage could be caused.
* Oasis lead singer Liam Gallagher is rumoured to suffer from nodules, based upon some of his live performances in recent years.
* Angela Gossow, the lead vocalist of Arch Enemy, also suffered from a vocal fold nodule.
* Singer Lisa Origliasso of the Australian duo The Veronicas suffered from nodules in her throat while touring with Ashlee Simpson in June 2006. She had to cancel the rest of her tour gigs, while she went for an operation and recuperated.
* Mariah Carey, credited with a 5-octave vocal range and famed for her extensive use of the whistle register (the highest human vocal register) in a recent magazine interview, divulged she has had vocal nodules since she was a little girl.
* Bill Kaulitz, lead singer of Tokio Hotel, underwent surgery to remove a developed cyst in April 2008. Bill had to remain silent for ten days after his surgery, a feat for the chatty singer. As a result, the band had to cancel numerous shows of their European 1000 Hotels '08 tour.
Granted my throat has hurt for a couple weeks but I'm not hoarse, I've cut out singing as much as possible and I think I caught it early enough that I won't need surgery...but that list dude....Mariah Carey?! Justin Timberlake? Whitney Houston?! ..There's hope for me yet.
Although, if you want to pray for me, I wouldn't fight you on it. :) |
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| On a lighter note |
[Jul. 13th, 2008|05:13 am] |
The show tonight was a lot of fun...very fitting for us because if you know us well enough, you know that something goes wrong or is weird every show. Tonight we played in a gazebo in the middle of a field by a lake and we were last and we got cut short because the neighbors were complaining but it didn't matter. It was hard for me, and for a minute I didn't think I was going to be able to let go, but I did. It's the right thing for me, and it's the right time.
L.A is calling me...I'm stoked. But now I don't know if I should find another band or if I should do the rocket summer thing and write all the shit myself and have a backup band? Which is something I never thought I would ever want to do but after all this, I realize how hard it is to be in a band. But there's also the part of me that doesn't think my solo stuff is good enough. Plus it's just weird. I don't know. I'm going to figure it out though. When I come out with my next album, whenever it may be....it's going to be slammin.
holla |
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| Moving on... |
[Jul. 12th, 2008|03:14 am] |
I talked to the Ryans today and we resolved our anger..but the problem remains that things have so far gone in our band that I think we are all just tired....and can't see where we would go with this band. I tried to talk them into going to L.A with me but they didn't seem to down with that. And so this is how it ends for us. Not angrily...sad, though. I don't think any of us thought we would ever quit this band. I'm playing one last show with them tomorrow, and I think it will be fun.
But L.A is where I need to be. I haven't been so excited in a long time. It's going to be hard....actually a pain in the ass but I can do it. It's going to take a lot of work but I can do it....everybody else did, and music is worth it. |
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